Bean there, done that

The date with Bean last night was fun. Bean is a way cool girl. She even put on lip gloss and I didn't mind too much (but I certainly didn't kiss her!). I took her back to her car after the game and that was it. I think there is a fairly high likelihood of another date with Bean. However, I don't really see Bean as marriage potential for me.

I received a text from Charlie today. I think her and I will go on a second date even though I don't feel tons of romance right now. My family and friends have really been encouraging me to pursue for a little longer to see if there is chemistry. I guess they think that I don't know what chemistry feels like. I disagree. At what point do people decide that falling in love is secondary to marrying someone that they can have a successful relationship with? To be honest, I think that lots of people marry someone that they aren't in love with. This is why they cheat, why they treat each other poorly and why they get divorced. I am more scared of marrying someone I am not in love with than living the rest of my life single. But will that change? At some point, the prospect of sex and companionship must outweigh the loneliness and despair enough for me to "settle" with someone I don't love. How do I avoid that?

My potential downfall

I think I made a mistake today. I messaged Swift and told her about this blog. I gave her the address. I haven't said anything about Swift that is going to get me into trouble with her. I think I have said that she is cute and that she appears very dateable. No, the problem is with TheWriter. I have no idea if Swift will read this blog or if she will tell TheWriter the address or any of the information within this blog. I certainly don't want to hurt TheWriter's feelings. I think she is a really cool girl and I enjoy being friends with her. The real reason I told Swift is cause Swift has basically told me there is no chance she will go on a date with me. I disagree. If one of my buddies liked a girl and she didn't like him back but was interested in me, I would absolutely go out with her. I would be upset at my friend if he thought otherwise. I am not stealing from my friend, I am merely using what they are unable to use. With limited resources available, efficiency becomes extremely important.

Notes: Tonight I am going to a basketball game with Bean. I met Bean on the cruise. She is a super cool girl - very laid back. RunsWithScissors and his date are going with us. Should be lots of fun. I asked Arches out today but she already had plans. I just feel a bit compelled to at least see if Arches and I would have fun together.